That was gloomy day . . . the sky was dark ... the wind blowing was cold . . . I was so alone in a room and the size of it made me felt so small, so weak and so fragile... Loneliness, depression, and frustration engulfed my whole being . I was so guilty and I pitied not only myself, but also my aunt and my father. . . I was so sad because my aunt wasn't able to get my report card from my teacher... I'd been in the campus gate for four hours waiting for her but. . . i had only wasted my time. . .I would have used the time to study and do some important stuffs in preparation for tomorrow's class. . . I went home bringing along my fake smile . . . I thought I was really okay and doing fine. . . My aunt explained to me that she forgot the meeting and promised to claim the card the next day . . . The same thing happened ,I'd waited again for almost two hours but the difference was that she came and my father also came . . . it was so unexpected and I was slightly surprised . . . There was a problem again . . . Mdm. Kerr , our adviser went home early that day and I know that they were disappointed for failing to do their purpose of coming . . . I really am so GUILTY .. . . wHy??? Because they had wasted a lot of things . . . the time , the money and most especially , the effort and I blame myself for forcing them to come . . . When they left , it's like I ran of air to breathe and I was so suffocated. I suddenly wanted to shout, to forget everything . . .My head ached so mu7ch and I can't bear the intense pain .I can only here their voices of the people outside . . .
The rain started and poured heavily as my tears fell down along my cheeks. . . I just can't stop crying and if I'd do so , I don't what would happen in that instance . . . maybe my heart would have burst . . . It hurts so much and it hurts more when you couldn't shout and you just couldn't show to the world what you really feel . . . There was no one to comfort me . . . I thought that my friends betrayed me for not coming and for not telling me comforting words like . . . "THINGS WOULD BE GOING TO BE ALRIGHT SO STOP CRYING NOW" . I was the most unfortunate person that time . . . Hearing some people talking about their grades and knowing that their parents were satisfied, I felt an emotion that I should not feel . . . JEALOUSY . . . i'M ALONE .. . AGAINST THE WORLD . . . I'm on the edge of breaking down , felt that I'm out-of-place .. . No one understands me and it's like I'm in the middle of nowhere .. . I wanted to ran away . . . and worst .. . I WANTED TO DIE AND NO ONES THERE TO SAVE ME . . . The time I had stopped crying , I had realized that they did not intentionally hurt and I was just making things big. I realized that I became so selfish .I did not give the chance to explain . I let my emotions win over brain . . . I was so sorry for that. Minutes later , my friends came running towards me . . . They were there to comfort me and I was glad . . . I had known that time that crying was not bad . . . instead , it relieves and lessens pain . I felt much better knowing that they were always there for me through thick and thin . Crying made me felt better . . . I would never forget this day . . .
