WISH......

Sometimes,I wish of too much things, things that are impossible and things that will never happen. A classmate of mine told me that I'm a strong willed person just like superheroes. I used to wish that one day I would become one. I wanted to become a gorgeous,strong and talented girl like Wonder Woman.I also dreamt of becoming like Spider man, an intelligent but secretive webbed one that has a heart of gold and knows no fear. I even wanted to be like Superman, the most respected and renowned superhero of all .

Now, even If I'm already old,a teenager as they say, I want to wish and I still wish for things.. . . I wanted to turn back the time but I just can't. I really miss my mother so much . Every time I pass by children happy chatting with mothers, I got very jealous and just suddenly flow down my cheeks . I want to see my mom so badly and be with her even if it's just for one day. Until now, the pain was still there and the was not yet healed.I might be happy in the outside but I'm dying in the inside .... I'd wasted so much ,I could have spent all of those with her. I didn't think of losing, thought that death would not knock on our door . I was wrong ... I just took my mom so granted believing that she would not leave us ... I felt so guilty that I never told her how much I love her . .. It was too late to realized ... SHE'S ALREADY GONE ...

I also wished that if ever I would be given a time machine, I would like to bring back the time when "we " were still friends ... when I was in first year . I can still go near him that time. I can talk to him ask about nonsense things and we still laugh together. .. MEMORIES ... But I was the one who started to avoid him ... I just felt something weird and i suddenly got scared. I was hurt once and I don't want to experience being sad and depressed again. At school, we just passed by on another without saying a simple "hello". It's so painful ... It's not his fault and it's not mine either. .. It's my stupid heart's fault. I'm so unfortunate,right? I've already lost two important persons in my life. They would never come back ... and I'm left alone wishing ...